...Grace and Truth

It is really late right now and i am still up with these two cornerstone facets of God on my mind.

I can't sleep.

Recently i have been experiencing Truth like never before. It was like a divine revelation from Heaven hit me over the head with the lightbulb and weight of his truth.

The truth of God will always lead me to freedom and the lies of the devil will always lead me to bondage.

That truth has been made clear to me recently.

Soo.....with that said...Grace has come into the picture all the more beautifully. I am going to just admit that i don't understand, receive, and walk in the glory of his grace as much as i would like to think i am. I dont expect any of this to actually make sense because it is 2.43 am, but i am just unloading. I have to put it somewhere and i just feel like typing at the moment.

With truth and grace on the brain...i have been extremely humbled through a few situations...I have caught myself being a little self righteous and actually thinking that i am above the struggles and temptations of this world. No. Not true. I am not Jesus. I am not perfect. I live in a fallen world with a body that is decaying all the time until it gets back to the dust, from which it came. But, at the same time, i am a new creation. Made alive, meaning i was once dead. Anyways...point being, i am not above anything or anyone...I am only fooling myself to actually think that i am better, or above that person who is acting like a fool in public, or drunk, or etc. In fact, ill go so far as to say that I AM THAT PERSON. Thats me. I am in need of jesus and in need of recieving his grace and truth ALL THE TIME. Literally. ALL THE TIME. This week has been sobering to me.

I have realized that i can muster up all the passion and all the want to and all the going to for jesus....but, if my choices (choose you this day whom you will serve) arent truth and i buy into a lie and choose some crap over the satisfyer of life....then i am left no different than any unbelieving person, in fact i am worse. I am then a hypocrite. All this stuff sounds so extreme...but really, is it that extreme. I think not. Him in me is greater than the world. But if i dont choose to actually belive that then i am nothing. This is where i am right now. Seeing and experiencing the importance of his truth on my life...and also tasting my depravity at the same time.

Anyways...its probably time to go to bed.

Will the struggle ever end. yes. it will. but i have to belive in the only one worthy of believing in. his name is jesus. I praise his name because i get caught in his grace more times than i realize. In fact, i am caught in his grace all the time.

::johnchristian